Sunday, July 29, 2007
went to see teacher yesterday with mum. then go temple to pray. then it was when i was out that i was informed that there were 2 ndp tickets available. so decided to go with my brother to the ndp. the thing is. both of us were not wearing red. cos we didnt know we were going. aw.anyways. the ndp was cool this time round. cos now that it is at marina bay, there can be water performances too. its like wow. hahaha. fireworks were once again cool. but it couldnt get romantic when u were watching with yr brother right? hahaha! so yea. i wasted the whole day out. didnt study at all. despite sleeping for a while at my grandma's place, was still very tired after reaching home. and that was becos i spent the entire night to read finish hp b4 my brother pass it on to his another friend that wanted to borrow from his friend. anyways. some thoughts that i had after finishing the book. here. highlight to see. in case. well. i spoil it for u.well what should i say?
some stuff that i had guessed was right afterall. like the "R.A.B" was indeed sirius's brother and that snape was good afterall. hehe.
the number of people who died was like O.O. sigh. but i guessed it couldnt be helped. cos its a war afterall.
i think i like this book the best. cos well. there were lots of actions and explanations to things that we didnt know in the past.
and the best thing that happened was knowing that snape was good. hahaha! even though. well... anyways. i really like this fanfic bout the aftermath of the story. try reading it. its cool.
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3687851/1/Picture_Perfect
qouted from the fic. and thats precisely what i felt.
- "I can only imagine what kind of mental fortitude it took for Severus to kneel at the feet of that filth and vow loyalty, to let that monster rummage through his thoughts and show him only lies. Severus deserved nothing but our respect and admiration, but he was determined to keep the proof of his loyalty secret, and thus was greeted only with suspicion and hatred."
- "In the final months of his life, Severus was alone as he had ever been, surrounded by enemies on both sides with only the portraits in his office for support."
so yar. the fic is bout snape. hahaha! its really amazing that the writer managed to keep snape's character in place despite making him the hero of it. so yeah. he will remain as my most fav character of the hp's series!
there u have it. its kinda sad that it ended... but well. all good things come to an end. yupz. now that the craze has ended for me. its time to study study study again. the only thing that is bugging me now is PE. GUESS WHAT? i am still having PE. while everyone else doesnt. shit. so shitty. and what makes me mad is that maybe. maybe i could have gotten out of this shit. haiz. nvm. its all my own fault. cant blame anyone.so yar. its coming in 2 months plus time. i am scared. so scared by the thought of it. A lvls that is... i am still not performing. the frightening thought of what will happen to me if i fail to do well and get into uni haunts me almost everyday. and even if i get in, where am i to find the money to study? i am not like my brother. i feel almost certain that scholarship is a no no for me. i hate being a burden. i hate making my dad working hard becos of me. hate it. hate it!argh! sometimes i really wonder what am i doing in this world. haiz. ahh well. i wont commit suicide la. i think thats stupid. cos yr life isnt really yrs to begin with.just go with the flow. wherever yr life takes u to. in the meantime. let me just go enjoy more fanfics. cheer me up. dun they?=D
Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
12:10 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
i wanna read harry potter!whines* whines* whines* X100sobs. my dad refuses to buy it for me. not that i blame him. cos i know my dad is having problems with our spendings now. well. not now. it was likeda since a long time ago. i am poor. my family is poor. it was likeda all along. so what since we are living in a 5 room flat? it doesnt mean we are rich. my mum told me once that all my dad has left of all of his fortune is our 5 room flat. and we are still paying installment for it every month. and here i am still wanting to buy harry potter book 7.argh. i suck.hanging out with some of my friends makes me realise that i am really poor. they go shopping almost everyday. spend as if money is like water. eating all the stuff that i never dream of eating. buying branded stuff like nobody's business. and here i am, feeling guilty that i have to get money from my dad just to hang out with my friends. and i was just reminded of how i had to take food from my friends when we were eating at aijsen just this friday becos i couldnt afford to buy one bowl for myself while they could. at least they were kind enough to donate to me. hehe.oh ya. btw. thanks "jj" for wishing me happy belated birthday even though it was like... 3 months ago?so yea. i should save more and spend less. the lucky thing is, i dun desire and spend money on branded stuff and well. eating expensive food. hehe. maybe i should reflect more on spending money when going out. hm. and on comics too. even though i guess thats not much of a problem now. since i read almost everything online. haha.haiz. i am still thinking bout hp.sigh.i actually went to read some spoilers yesterday. -.-couldnt resist. cos i accidentally came across some comments when looking at some hp fanarts on deviantart. argh. what should i say? it makes me wanna read it even more now.=(i think i will cry when i read the book... hahaha!but for now(even though i know it is bad of me to think this way), my mum seems to be quite quite willingly to get it for us (brother and me). well. dun get my hopes too high. its a 20% chance i presume.so yea. let me be a brat for once. (well. i guess i dun count myself as a brat on other occasions, do i?)=)
Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
10:20 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
so tired. anyways. i feel VERY motivated to work hard now. yes yes. i finally found a really strong reason why i must must do well. shall keep it to myself for now. hehe.was thrown into a state of i-really-dunno-how-to-carry-on-from-now-on for a few days. but well. i am fine again. CHEERZ!JIA YOU HY!hahaha. not jinshun ah. =pi am such a brat sometimes. taking things for granted. really hate myself for this. well. kinda feeling ji dong now. hahaha. this is what you call 感触良多吧！harhar.kk. shall go watch the results for campus now. i think boy boy will win. hahaha!he sang mummy so wonderfully. woots~
Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
11:38 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
sigh. i am always always ALWAYS repeating what i say over and over again... but yet... i am still committing the same mistake over and over again. i am too tired to talk about it. yes. its one of the times of a year again, that i am feeling disgusted with my exams results.dun talk bout it. makes me feel like vomiting blood.so yea. onto something funny.what are the vital symptoms that yr best friend has a boyfriend?let me tell u.1) she keeps sms-ing whena. shes eatingb. there is a lecture going on (oh come on?)c. when shes walkingd. when u are talking to herand many many more all the way to z.2) when sitting next to u during lecture shes sleeping but when sitting next to the guy shes so wide awake.3) when u can feel a different aura that is coming out from her, screaming out silently that "shes different from u now!"4) when she spends lesser and lesser time with u and more and more time doing (uhem) something else.oh. i cant think of more. maybe i will add more later on when i observe more. hehe.all the above assumptions are made based on hy's observation. ... pls DO NOT take it seriously.=plike that? i am crapping cos it destresses me. sorry to the victims of my crappiness. =Xoh. by the way. for more on vital symptoms that yr siblings have bf or gf, look for june for advices. shes damn good i presume? hahahaaa!i cant stand my brother. hes such a mysterious creature. sigh. june should give me more advices someday. oh ya. anyone like to come for film fest on 3rd aug?lol. i assure u all that it will be alot nicer this time. (not that last year's one was bad, i thought it was pretty good... except for the ending) i am really looking forward to catching the j1s' work. hmm. what should i say? the posters say it all! i love watching thrillers! and i heard mr principal will be in it too. cool huh. lol. and the tickets are cheaper this time round too. $6.50. but well... haha. i think i can get it cheaper for u all if u ask. *smirks*ahh. i am so freaking tired now. mentally. physically. emotionally.dun feel like doing anything...dun feel like sleeping.dun feel like going to school tmr.dun feel like studying anymore.dun feel like feeling anything anymore...wellll...just now i heard this guy calling his gf "我的女人" in front of all his friends, and suddenly i felt myself turning red. i was like huh?! why am i the one feeling embarrassed? -_- i am still wondering why now too. maybe i am too conservative despite trying to act modern. hahaha!sorry. random. random.so yea. ending off now. think i will be studying in sch from next week onwards. will find some isolated corner to hide and study alone... though i wish my brother's mp3 can work as well as it does last time. i will at least have some music to keep me company. =(speaking of which. i am going to start saving money to buy jj's album. the 20 bucks one. with his party ticket in it. (yes, yes. i know. its his party again!) just hoping that it does not clash with anything else. so. my dear friends. no need to buy for me already. we can all dun buy presents for each other this year. hahaha! just save for kbox outings! hehe!and i keep wanting to say this. i have been having weird dreams nowadays. its really weird. one of them that i could really remember very very well was me not being able to walk. O.O everytime bout 5 steps i took, i would fall down and struggle to stand up again. i was desperately trying to keep up with my friends but they were all walking really fast. (they were actually walking normally but becos i was falling constantly, i couldnt catch up) so... does this mean anything? i told my parents and my dad was like, " you better go pray for yr safety".-___-anyways. i really should end off here. kk. i will crap another time soon.byeeee~
Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
10:29 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
damn. i hope i can find my thermometer...
Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
2:00 PM
Monday, July 09, 2007
currently typing my personal qualities for my form teacher. everyone in my class is supposed to do so... so that she can know more bout our "hidden talents" and therefore can put them in for our SGC. ha! i thought on 6th june or around there was the last time i would see of SGC. but i guess i was wrong. gah. i am really stuck and dunno what to write. hate it!argh!anyways. i feel like going kbox again. haha. 不够爽啊！haiz. i am still thinking bout playing. wth!even though i am really proud to say that i uninstalled maple on friday night. hahaha!oh. today is the "wear yr interview wear to sch" day. but guess what? not alot of people wore. so i guessed i should have really stuck to plan A, of wearing the plain old uniform. oh well. the talk was... okay lor. i mean. can people really remember what to do when they are really facing it? i dunno. not for me. i will be too nervous. haha!oh ya. UVERworld's songs are cool! i am so in love with their songs right now~ haha. but actually i only heard bout 3 to 4 songs of theirs. but really. their songs are nice!D-technolife - bleach 2nd openingColours of the heart - blood+ opening (never watch this)CHANCE! - theme song for one of bleach gamesahh! i am like repeating the songs now and then~hehe. shall go find more of their songs if i have the time.wed is gonna be a long day. sigh.i hope everything goes well...
Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
5:50 AM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
managed to get archi her birthday present a few hours back in time. hehe. though its more like. she bought the present herself. hahaha.walk till my legs are in pain now. wonder if i can walk in a few hours time. will be going out again. haha.i really should consider setting up "Cinderella" for the greater benefits of our legs!right? right.well. nvm...take a look at this artwork~http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/10578923/?qo=2&q=harry+potter&qh=boost%3Apopular+age_sigma%3A24h+age_scale%3A5cool huh.i personally think that ravenclaw is the best drawn. handsome huh. hehe.riddle, draco and bellatrix are great too.i love looking at nice artworks! feel inspired to draw better!haha!kk. 7.7.07lets do our part in saving our dear EARTH~
Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
2:27 AM
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
mids are over! hehe. and i just played 3 hours of maple today. had enough now though.sat going out~ yea~lets all wear green!!!!and i feel like watching harry potter now.cant wait for the last book too. been whining at my dad to get it for me. ahhh! excited!i seriously think snape is good. hahaha! i dun hate him so... i guess i must really like him. hahaha!kk. going abit crazy now.4 days to enjoy!woots~
Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
10:53 PM
